He lived his life amid a war of words
That evil tongues kept jangling soon and late,
Yet grappled like a Titan with his fate
Till evermore he felt his finer chords
Responsive to the joy that life affords.
No more he sat him down disconsolate.
The benediction of the Paraclete
Brought joy into his life from hidden hoards.
For, stumbling darkly ‘neath a clouded sky,
Burning with shame that he no comfort gleaned
From aught of good he could around descry,
Made weak by all he felt and saw of wrong,
Rough-flung by Earth upon himself, he leaned
Hard back against the Eternal, and was strong.
A soul lay shuddering under blow on blow
That fell upon it hard and pitiless.
Then cried it out aloud in its distress:
"How long, 0 Lord, how long must this be so?"
O wayward, foolish soul. dost thou not know
Life's buffets are one side of God's caress?
He'll blast, if need be, to make fix to bless,
And slay in love life on thee to bestow.
The forge and furnace, Lord, alike are Thine,
And Thine the hammer-blows that shape and weld,
And Thou the smith by whose strong arms we're held
And beaten into fitness. Why repine
At sorrow? Strike and spare not, Lord, We choose
To be a sword true-tempered for Thy use.
He chewed that bitter cud of all, remorse,
Yet fled from fancy on to fancy's end,
And all the purpose of his life would bend
To catch life's flying pleasures in their course.
So, into folly flinging all his force,
He, with the shadows that her steps attend,
Did all the noble fires of youth expend,
Until he grew more soulless than a corpse.
And all the powers of joy were shrivelled up,
And even appetite began to pall,
And thought grew mordant; for he felt that all
The sweetness had departed from life's cup.
O miserable he. of whom 'tis said
His body lives around a soul that's dead.
A soul a-weary on a bed of pain
Lay helpless, watching pass the idle hours
From Springtime, with its glorious rush of flowers,
To Autumn, with sere leaves and golden grain.
And aye her thoughts ended in one refrain:
“Oh that I had the strength to use the powers
That throb so quick within me Nature's dowers
I must hand back to her, unused, again."
That soul a-weary lay and slept one night,
And to her couch there came a spirit veiled.
Starting, she looked upon his form,and paled,
But lo Death's sable skirts were lined with light.
He stooped and kissed her as her spirit fled,
Shining transformed, "Not Death, but Life," he said.
"Thou art the Christ", said Peter; and again:
“I know Him not", denying with an oath.
Then the cock crew, and his loved Master, loath
Even in that hour of stress to show His pain,
But looked on the blasphemer; and amain,
As ‘twere a sea, wind-churned to angry froth,
Peter's heart smote him for his broken troth.
He fled into the dark, and wept like rain.
Anon the thought of all his failure crept
Into his heart, devouring like a fire,
“O unfit for apostleship he wept,
“To go a-fishing's all thou mayst aspire"--
Remorse had wrought humility so deep;
Yet Christ re-crowned him with:"Go, feed My sheep."
No pride of place nor pomp of pride showed he,
But stooped his eyes before the gaze of men
Who marvelled at his greatness much, and then
Marvelled even more at his humility.
The least of those around him he would see,
Though monarchs sought his counsel, and his pen
Senates controlled, and all things to his ken
Seemed open, as he owned divinity.
Whence came his kindly voice, and gentle mien,
And tender heart and heavenly, though none knew,
Not even himself, God saw from what they grew,
What made him sorrow-worn, though serene--
The thought of ill, once loved though long eschewed,
And secret sins, long fought, but unsubdued.
Unfolding 'neath the light of woman's smile
He grew in grace and gladness day by day.
Life's purple clothed him, and o'er all his way
Roses were strewn. Nothing that could defile
Was suffered near him; and the hours to while
With dance and song, to laugh, jest, and be gay,
To play at being loved, and love for play
Were all he thought of. ‘Twas the Tempter's wile.
And yet the lure, full-cunning, failed. It chanced
A tale of woe went to his heart; and all
The world's sorrow rose before him as he danced
One night with high-born ladies at a ball,
Till sudden from his lips the laughter died--
He saw what all the mirth meant; how it lied.
If God were cruel think you He'd have made
The world so fair? And is the world less fair
When Winter flings her snow-dust in the air,
And frost the earth in iron bonds has laid?
So, living here,though sin blight, sorrow fade,
And weary hearts with sorrow sigh, and care,
And all seems disappointment everywhere,
Mine eyes' sweep leaves my soul still undismayed.
For, as the sower in the new-turned soil
Casts grain in faith, though all around is drear,
With no green blade to kindle hope in toil,
Nor finds the desolation breed one fear,
God has His winter for the soul, and sows
The seeds of love and gladness ‘mid its snows.
I know not how in Heaven the Eternal speaks,
Standing among His angels; but to me,
On earth here, while I hearken for Him, He
Comes on the dawn-wind, kisses both my cheeks,
And tells me of His love. Then, after weeks
Of sadness, in a linnet's song, so free
And full of joyance, or the majesty
Of some grave sunset, with clouds piled like peaks
Of snow-clad mountains bathed in rosy light,
He tells of grace and glory. Most of all
He speaks to me through children, in whose eyes
Himself has looked, within them hid the might
Of his great pureness, and from many a fall,
And slip, and sin, they hold me. So I rise.
We keep God very busy up in Heaven.
He made all good, and fair to look upon;
But man sinned, and the perfectness was gone.
And now the Eternal to strange shifts is driven
To crush the fruits of evil till they're riven
And goodness trickles out. Our life's in pawn:
He pays the debt, and bids us up and on,
Forgiving us if only we have striven.
We rage, and from our wrath God brings forth peace,
And saves us from ourselves in our despite,
Redemption working out for us, and ease,
From sin and suffering by His love's wise might.
Only to Him the agony is known, Treading
His dark Gethsemane alone.
May mild-eyed Peace, with dove-like wings outspread,
Descend on thee this holy Christmastide;
And may she never wander from thy side
What time the years are flying o'er thy head.
May Joy, the golden-crowned, to Plenty wed,
Befriend thee still, though mocking Care deride,
And evermore with thee and thine abide,
That thou mayst aye from paths of ill be led.
May Love, that seraph-soul all wrapt in flame,
Inspire thee to attain the grandest height
Where all they who have won the nobler name
Enjoy God's smile in everlasting light,
That thou, too, with thine harp before the Throne
Mayst chant to Him who bought thee for His own.
It was an evening in December wild;
The waves upon the beach hushed earth to rest;
The stars from out the heavens' azure pressed
With eager glance to see the Holy Child.
He came to earth; and, with looks maiden-mild,
The Virgin Mother rocked Him on her breast,
Anon her Saviour's tiny form caressed
Till He looked up into her face, and smiled.
Since thus it was Emanuel was born,
Thus drew forth love in even His earliest years,
While on his Mother's face, pale and pain-worn,
A happy pride shone glorious through her tears,
O wondrous Motherhood to be so blessed,
Thy mystic worth by God Himself confessed.
May this New Year, whose eye hath oped on thee,
The happy harbinger of many more,
With bright, and ever-brightening joys in store,
To thee, and thine, and all thou lovest be.
And, as its days pass o'er thee, may they see
A Spring of blessed thoughts pass on before,
Through Summer's richness, through ripe Autumn's store,
To Winter's snowy crown of purity.
I pray not for thee thou mayst know no sorrow,
For they who know not sorrow know not bliss;
But, linking each today with each tomorrow,
Instead of joy untinged I'll pray for this:
That thou mayst see, when crosses crush thee down,
Gilding the dust, some glory from thy crown.
I lie and dream. My working days are o'er;
I'm but a worn-out tool, a broken loom,
Waiting the day when I shall dream no more,
And silence reigns within a darkened room.
So let it be. I am content to go.
The days still left to me are short and few;
But one long day's before me, and I know
When that day comes I'll see my dreams come true.